The Provider
I haven’t really been consistent with my posts. Life kind of just gets in the way and I get caught up and consumed. I always prayed since I can remember, but as I got older and started paving out the path for my life... I always prayed that God would allow me to get from point A to point B. Little did I know at that point, that what I have in mind isn’t what God has in mind. The more I prayed and the more that things never seemed to work out in my favor, I stopped believing that God had the best in mind for me. I never understood why things worked out and happened the way they did, but I eventually saw that God was saving something better for me.
So often I feel like sometimes, I grow impatient and when that happens I throw the plans that God has for me out the window. It's like I’m telling God…”don’t worry about me; I obviously know what’s better.” I got to a point where I realized that God is my main provider, always giving us exactly what we needed when we needed it. A good example of this is thinking of a house that has a refrigerator. Imagine that this refrigerator is always supplied with food and never runs empty. You know that every time you walk into the house, and go to the fridge, there is going to be something for you to eat. I’m not saying that God is like a refrigerator, what I’m saying is that God is THE PROVIDER...always giving us exactly what we need; when we need it.
I still have doubts when I pray, because I question if God is really going to come through. The funny thing is when I begin to doubt the goodness of God, I drive myself crazy trying to handle life on my own. Truth is, what I think may be the best greatest opportunity, God says he has something much better. God knows what we need even before we ask him. He knows what is best for us, what is bad for us in the long run and he knows when it's time. I have to remind myself constantly that God has my back; he won't fail me and just leave me. Even if things are messy in my life and even if I have to wait on God to answer my prayer...as easy it is to forget when times get tough, I can't forget all the other times that he has come through for me.
God wants us to have faith in him to provide for us daily, he wants to show you that you can have an endless supply of joy, strength, hope, breakthrough, success if you come to that point in your life where you say "God, allow me to be able to depend on you and see that you are the main provider in my life."