Embrace Where You Are

Lately, the phrase “enjoy the process” has often come up in past conversations I have had with people. I noticed more than ever that “enjoying the process” is more of a daily struggle for me than anything. Through this whole quarantine process, I found myself struggling to believe that soon this would be over. I got all worked up and anxious because the thought of being in a house for another month was something I didn’t think I would handle. On top of that, finding out that I wasn’t accepted into the Texas Tech Nursing program again was just icing on the cake. Nothing had seemed to be working out the way I thought it would…., and that was the problem. I had dreams and a timeline of how old I would be by the time I graduated, became a nurse, had a house of my own, and, hopefully, a family.

When I first found out that things didn’t work out according to “Deserae’s Timeline,” but God’s timeline...it was a tough pill to swallow. It was hard for me to accept that maybe this is where God wanted me to be. I didn’t know that the process would challenge my faith and challenge me to be the person that God has created me to be. I always saw the setbacks of not being in school and the battle of dealing with anxiety as a negative thing. Just because we go through valleys doesn’t mean we have reached a level of failure. God leads us through the valleys and allows us to have what he calls “detours” to bring us to a place where we learn to trust and be okay with the process.

Even if it takes years, God has you right where he wants you to be. It’s definitely hard to see things through a positive lens, but I can definitely tell you it is not a day to night process. I have to learn to be okay where I am at and embrace the place that God has me as of right now. Something I read was that “God sustained you and brought you this far. He has big plans for you. Keep trusting!” At the end of the day, God knows better than we ever will. Joseph waited 14 years, David waited 15 years, Abraham waited 25 years, Jesus waited 30 years, Moses waited 40 years...so if God making you wait, there’s a darn good reason. Trust Him.

Yes, it may be a process that might have some hills and valleys, but...this is the place where God has called you to be. It’s a season to grow, to trust, and to learn.

Ecclesiastes 3:11 says, "He has made everything beautiful in its time."