Hold Every Thought Captive

I never realized how powerful the mind is when we allow ourselves to let our thoughts run wild. It's eye opening for me when I hit a rough place in my life and allowed my mind to run. If I'm being honest with you all, there was a time when I felt like what was the point of even trying anymore. I was never like this, and all of the sudden I just starting having these thoughts. I started listening to the lies that my mind created. The lies that began to circle my head were..."you're not worth anything" or "maybe things would be better off with your family if you just took yourself out of the equation." For a while I had felt alone and this battle I was fighting; I honestly felt like I couldn't overcome it. I was in a state of mind where I couldn't hear myself think. There would be moments where I would just be sitting there and those same thoughts would fill my mind again.

I hit a point where I grew tired of it and told myself that "THIS WAS ENOUGH!!" This was a battle that I knew I wasn't going to fight alone. God reminded me that he was there with me through the whole thing, even when it didn't feel like it. I want you all to know that this is hard for me to write because, this is a part of my life that I never saw myself sharing. It's a serious subject... I get that. I know that some of us might be facing battles like this or even dealing with the lies that our minds tend to tell us...but these thoughts and lies DO NOT HAVE THE FINAL SAY! God knows what you are going through and he tells us in 2 Corinthians 10:5 "...and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."

We can't let our mind get the best of us...we need to be strong and really just push through. YOU are ENOUGH, YOU are loved, YOU MATTER, God does have a PURPOSE for YOU and YOU are NEEDED!! I admit, sometimes it's hard to rewire your mind, especially if you let your mind run for so long. Let me just tell you, that if God got me through it, he will let you go through it! You are not going to let your thoughts and lies overtake you and you will win this battle. God has already given us the victory and all we have to do is TRUST him! So anytime, your mind decides to lie to you or decides to fill your head with ugly thoughts, shift your mind and think of postive things and just PRAY through it.

It might be hard, but I know you can do it! YOU have been SET FREE, because GOD SAID SO! I love you guys and I pray that my story can be a survival guide for you all.