Let Go and Let God

I thought that my time was going to come where I could just soon graduate and get my degree. I always felt like I was “so close, yet so far” from my hearts desire. I was part of the Nursing program at UTEP and unfortunately wasn’t chosen to have the chance to retake a class that I didn’t pass. Instead of waiting until next year, I decided to try Texas Tech. I was in good standing and everything seemed like it was going good. I literally took a big leap of faith with this application because once I sent it in, it was out of my control. After 2 months of waiting to hear back, I finally did 4 days ago. I wasn't selected for the program. At this point, I was a bit confused, I started to ask God...”okay, I didn’t make UTEP and now Texas Tech so what’s going on?” I got discouraged and wondered if Nursing was even for me.

I still don’t understand what God is trying to do but lately, I‘ve had to tell myself that God has a wonderful plan for me. Although, I don’t understand why or see the bigger picture as to why God‘s doing what he’s doing...I have to trust. I think that’s one of the hardest things that people have to do. It’s hard to trust when you can’t see the whole picture. Like I said in a previous blog...just because it didn’t work out for you this time doesn’t mean its over. Just like my pastor said yesterday during the message...Be PERSISTENT and at God‘s perfect timing, you will reap a harvest! I’m still trying to figure out what’s next for me, but if I could leave you all with anything, it would be to stop trying to figure things out on your own, stop worrying, stop doubting and learn to leave it in God’s hands.

My life verse is Jeremiah 29:11 it says “For I have great plans for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE!!” How amazing is that!!!! God’s not here to ruin your life, he’s here to give you the best of the best. Believe that he can because he will. In these moments, as hard as it is, let God do what God does best. In his timing things will begin to fit the puzzle you have been trying to figure out for the past weeks, months or years. Let it go and give your worries to him, because he cares for you.