Over It All
I know that the 14-day journey finished yesterday, but I just wanted to continue writing. Today was a rough day for my family and me. We talked to the cardiologist doctor at the hospital along with the nurse that was on staff. The main issue right now with my gramps is that he has a low ejection fraction. The doctor said that this was caused because his heart is distressed, and having COVID complicated the entire situation. The norm should be 55-70; right now, he's at a 25. Ejection fraction is the amount of blood that is actually being pumped out of his heart into the body. So only 25% of the blood is being ejected.
He will be on a life vest for the next 3 months. The life vest will help monitor his heart and shock him if there's a need for it. The doctor is doing all that he can, and for that, I'm genuinely grateful. They are optimizing the medication he is taking to find that sweet spot for him, so they won't have to switch his medicine. My mom was a little overwhelmed with the calls and all the information, and I can only imagine how hard it is to see your dad go through this. My grandma cried...and I know it's hard for her...she wants my grandpa to get better and come home.
I had a breakdown while I was in the car going to get gas. I promise you that I wasn't driving and crying at the same time. It's just hard seeing my gramps in the hospital and hearing him get emotional and tell us it's hard. It's hard to see my grandma break down because she misses my gramps and doesn't want anything to happen to him. Seeing my mom too and hearing her out... it's a lot, and I broke…
While I was in the car, a song called "Hills and Valleys" by Tauren Wells came on. In the song, he sings, "Father, you give and take away every joy and every pain, through it all you will remain...OVER IT ALL!" God is over this situation. Yes, it's hard...sometimes too hard, but God isn't a God who lies. Yes, he takes away, but he gives us something better. He's shown me that he has had my gramps in the palm of his hand. There have been rough days, but God has helped us get through this. I have to stand on that promise... God won't FORSAKE US or LEAVE US. He won't FAIL US. God is OVER IT ALL.
God won't forsake you or leave you, and he definitely won't fail you. God is for you. He goes in front of you, behind you, beside you, and all around you! He's with you. Stand on those promises that he is watching over you, and remember he will bring you through.